I haven't been out-out in a while.

Tonight I am going out for the first time in 3 months. The last time I went out properly was for my birthday. I'm actually quite nervous, I know that seems rather silly, but I am. I'm not sure what of though. I always think people are judging me or thinking nasty things about how I dress/look, and I know people will stare because I have piercings and tattoos but sometimes I just makes me feel as if I am a lesser person than them.

I bought a new dress to make me feel a little better about being out. I'm not one for dressing up or looking girly but I'm gonna try my damn hardest tonight. I want people to look at me and think 'aw she looks nice' rather than 'look at that weirdo'

H & M £14.99

I bleached my roots about 3 days ago and they went a yellow colour, so I used toner to try and get them as white as my hair but it didn't go how it was planned and my roots are still slightly yellowy which is rather annoying as I am so short and everybody can see the top of my head! Going to wear my heels to make me slightly taller (will put flats in my bag just in case!)

I'm just praying I will enjoy tonight and not worry about it constantly, I know there is no need to but thats just the way I am! Wish me luck!