Home for Christmas.

Today me and my brother travelled home for Christmas. We both live in York (thats where we are at University) and had to travel 3 and a half hours on two trains to Norwich, norfolk. It would have been simple if we didn't have two very heavy suitcases and the people on the train where a little nicer but we made it without any delays (which is unusual for the british rail system)

So I am home, got a nice hot meal cooked by my wonderful mum and its just nice to be back with home comforts and actual warmth (my uni house is freezing!) I do miss Alan a lot thought and its going to be hard not seeing him for a couple of weeks.

Anyway heres a picture of me and the Christmas tree.

Amsterdam at last!

So I finally got my pictures back from my trip from amsterdam. So here is a collection of the best of them. I was pretty impressed with the quality of them as I took them on a disposable camera!

My failed night out.

Okay, so Monday I went out for two of my friends birthdays. I was real nervous about it cause I hadn't been out in ages, but I thought if I put the effort in i'll enjoy it. So got ready (curled hair, did make-up etc...)  and then it decides to rain, big massive fail, so had to take my leather jacket and hat with me.


Anyway got to the Student Union and met up with a friend who I haven't seen in ages, it was nice to catch up. I felt a little uncomfortable because everybody looked, taller, prettier and less terrified as me. I had a few drinks then left to go to Stone Roses with my brother and his friends and when I got there I just started to feel really anxious and out of place. I just sat on a chair and starred at my phone. I just didn't want to be there so I text my boyfriend and he met me and we went home. I feel like a bit of a wimp (and that I've wasted my pretty dress) but never mind, this I tried, right?

Yesterday I got my Christmas presents off my Boyfriend Alan. He got me a gorgeous Pandora bracelet with two charms, a big Dog stuffed toy, a beautiful skirt, a mug with The Joker on it and Beauty and the Beast on DVD (he knows me so well!)

I go home on Saturday and I'm looking forward to seeing my parents and spending our first christmas in our new house, but I'm going to miss Alan so much!

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I haven't been out-out in a while.

Tonight I am going out for the first time in 3 months. The last time I went out properly was for my birthday. I'm actually quite nervous, I know that seems rather silly, but I am. I'm not sure what of though. I always think people are judging me or thinking nasty things about how I dress/look, and I know people will stare because I have piercings and tattoos but sometimes I just makes me feel as if I am a lesser person than them.

I bought a new dress to make me feel a little better about being out. I'm not one for dressing up or looking girly but I'm gonna try my damn hardest tonight. I want people to look at me and think 'aw she looks nice' rather than 'look at that weirdo'

H & M £14.99

I bleached my roots about 3 days ago and they went a yellow colour, so I used toner to try and get them as white as my hair but it didn't go how it was planned and my roots are still slightly yellowy which is rather annoying as I am so short and everybody can see the top of my head! Going to wear my heels to make me slightly taller (will put flats in my bag just in case!)

I'm just praying I will enjoy tonight and not worry about it constantly, I know there is no need to but thats just the way I am! Wish me luck!